A lesson on money means nothing

I am deep in debt. I am close to having my car repoed, my electric shut off, my phone turned off, but these are such minor things.

My daughter Elizabeth leaves for the Marines tomorrow morning. She is at the MEPS center now, she gets her final swearing in and leaves for bootcamp tomorrow. I will not have contact with her for two weeks, minimum. After that, it will be through snail mail for another couple of weeks, with maybe a brief phone call or two.

My baby is an adult. She is a well rounded strong adult. She is determined, she is intelligent, she is beautiful. So why can I not see any of this. Why do i see a little toddler running around needing a diaper change. Why can I only see she needs me? Is it because I need her? Is it because she is my life and I need her more than she needs me>? Is it because she is one of the pieces of the puzzle that validates me and my life? Is it because I need to hug and make her all better and she doesnt need me to do this anymore? Why all questions?

i know she has the mental and physical fortitude to survive boot camp, I know she is an intelligent adult with a strong sense of right and wrong. I know this is her dream. But I know she is my baby and that is supposed to be first and foremost isnt it?